I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in an extended while, I don’t feel alone.

Section of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I will be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.

Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to share wasn’t yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.

That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never needs to have told you, never needs to have let you see inside a course in miracles. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I possibly could not consider something that I had stated that I felt regret for.

Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I had in visiting the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere with its residents’peace of mind, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored a lot of my past experiences and relationships.

This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his true videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.

You will find other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.